I won’t be graduating on schedule. However, I only have four more classes to take and I can graduate.
So, since I have a life that I have to live alone now[1], I’ve decided to just go with three classes.
I will be taking Cultural Anthropology (online) with the same Sociology professor from Fall 2007 whom I adored and very much adored me in return. He was totally awesome. I did everything I could to stay away from the dude I tried to take this semester. He was nuts. But this guy is the real deal and totally awesome. I can’t wait. It will be just as tough, but at least I already have experience with this guy. I’m so excited already!
I found a Speech class that says it’s “100% online” so I grabbed it. If it’s truly totally online, then I should be okay on the majority of things. I might need to work on getting a camera/video of some kind, but that’s much easier for me to deal with on speeches (if that’s the way it goes) than standing up in front of people. Ironic, eh?, for someone who wants to be a professor to have stagefright?
And I decided to take a General Introduction to Astronomy (again, online) as my physical science class.
That leaves an Advanced Humanities class to take but there were not any online classes for it this semester. If Summer I rolls around without an online class for it, then I’m going to have to seriously question their promise that this degree could be done totally online. But I’ll also have to suck it up and figure out how to make a campus class for a Summer session.
But … needless to say—and to the joy of at least a couple of people—I am officially registered for Spring 2009 with an anticipated graduation date of sometime mid-summer 2009. Then Phase 1 of the Evul Master Plan will be completed and I’ll have to be figuring out where to go from there.
And where to go from here will depend on my personal life crisis that is going on right now. I’m not leaving so long as there is a snowball chance in hell that we’ll work all this out for our family. But if not, then we will probably be looking to move sometime between the end of next summer and next Yule to somewhere else far, far away in a galaxy far, far away[2].
Was that redundant? LOL!
But I also predict that I’ll be looking hot as shit and then be very dead before the end of 2009. Oh well. Life goes on.
innervox
- … and I have to focus on being the sole caregiver to a very active child at the same time [↩]
- … which gives plenty of time for working things out or finding a new place to live, either way [↩]
I wonder that more people don’t put as much effort in to staying as they do to leaving. Why is it that so many are desperate to get OUT of a relationship, and you are so eager to get back in to yours?
I wonder that more people don’t put as much effort in to staying as they do to leaving.
Apparently it’s easy to put no effort into things. We live in a world of instant gratification. What’s the point of working on a relationship that is broken and go ahead and fix it when you can just toss it out the car window, keep moving, and hit the next McRelationship to pick up a new one?
Why is it that so many are desperate to get OUT of a relationship, and you are so eager to get back in to yours?
I think commitment is something one doesn’t take lightly. But when faced with different approaches to life, many people just think that it’s a game, that it’s about what you can take from someone else rather than give back. I made some bad decisions and my lack of action in certain areas caused some problems. Nothing, in my mind, that is unfixable and certainly nothing that betrayed my family, left them to rot while I spent time in a hotel room with someone else and lying that I was with other family, and was intentionally going out of my way to ensure that I spit at my mate at every turn. No. My problem was being too self-absorbed and ignorant of how I had emotionally abandoned the one person I truly love more than anything else and who loved me back with equal furvor.
But when you have already moved on to a new relationship (and then feel the need to constantly lie about it — and what the hell does the other guy think about being lied to and lied about as well!?!?) then there really is no motivation to turn around and see what you’ve destroyed in your wake of selfishness and greed.
I, on the other hand, have spent countless hours in personal inventory and reworking personal traits that are defective and out of place.
Apparently, though, all for nothing.
all for nothing? Then you were reworking your personality traits for the wrong reasons. That is no longer about being the best you, but being the best you, for Jenn. Which isn’t the same thing.
All for nothing within the context of the comment. I hold no illusions about the good this whole thing has done me. I am already massively ahead on certain personal goals that I used to just sit around and think about without any motivation. So, at the very least, I have that debt to her in this. I’m certainly motivated to accomplish a couple different things I wouldn’t have if I was still sitting in front of a computer (uh, I still do that, just a bit more broken up by other activities LOL!) wondering if I could get out and accomplish some goals.
But, no: it’s not all for nothing in my life, for me personally. But, so far (and how far remains to be seen, so I’m not dismissing it permanently), it has all been for nothing in relation to certain family/relationship goals that I was told explicitly had to be accomplished in order to get any response in return. I’m still waiting for that response.